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Secrets, Love, and Trust
Sep. 4th, 2009 02:11 amI find myself thinking tonight, more then any night before, about secrets. (It has nothing to do with what I'm listening to.)
Secrets work when kept. Also, Secret Keepers work only if you can truly, completely trust them. If you even have just a little doubt, do not tell them anything. Not one word at all.
I am now, officially, a secret keeper. I know from past experiences, and past secrets I still hold dear, that this will not be a problem for me, at all. I swear, you can get me close to passed out drunk and still won't get a word out of me. Not one.
Love is a weird creature, it likes to pull you in, drag you in kicking and screaming and you'll find yourself at a point when you don't struggle anymore. You do not fight to have your own way because that's how love is.
Love also likes to trick you, it likes to trick you into believing that it's all okay, that everything that is happening, it's okay. It likes those tricks of light and dark, it sometimes drags you in to just play with you. It likes to show you what you don't want. It hopes that you will understand it, but it's so hard to understand a creature like love.
Trust, it's a fact of life that those people close to you, you should trust, you should trust them with everything you have, absolutely everything. There's so few people in the world now that you can truly trust like that. And maybe that's okay, maybe it's okay for you to just have one person that you can trust with your secrets, that you can trust with everything you are and everything you will be just that one person.
Some people, they're so trusting they trust the wrong people. They learn, they start to learn that the only way to survive is to trust no one. I feel for those of you who feel that way. The way that someone has hurt you so much that you can't trust anyone anymore. It's so nice to trust one person with everything you are, it's so hard for us mere humans to go it alone. That's what trust is for. That's what we have that one or few friends we can trust so we don't have to go it alone.
For those of you that trust no one, that feel as if it's too hard, it hurts to much from before. Try to become someone new, find that someone, but don't pick someone, watch them, watch all your friends, pick that one that you can trust with everything. Think, if you told that person your deepest darkest secret, would they have someone else to go to, or are you it? Do they trust you the same way that you trust them? You can't have trust without that. It's like love, a love that goes one way isn't love at all. You need trust to go back and forth, you must trust this person and this person must trust you.
Without these small things, without love that may be wrong, without secrets that may be told to the wrong person, without trust, you cannot learn. A perfect life from start to finish is not possible. But if you learn from yourself, listen to yourself and become what it is that you feel is what you need to be, that's what life is all about.
A life without mistakes? How can one be? Mistakes is how humans learn, it's how we know that your friends will truly stick by your side, it's how we know the people we love will be there, it's how we know that this path we're on, this path we choose is right.
Remember, Love, Trust, Life, it's not easy. It's not easy for anyone. You are not alone.
Secrets work when kept. Also, Secret Keepers work only if you can truly, completely trust them. If you even have just a little doubt, do not tell them anything. Not one word at all.
I am now, officially, a secret keeper. I know from past experiences, and past secrets I still hold dear, that this will not be a problem for me, at all. I swear, you can get me close to passed out drunk and still won't get a word out of me. Not one.
Love is a weird creature, it likes to pull you in, drag you in kicking and screaming and you'll find yourself at a point when you don't struggle anymore. You do not fight to have your own way because that's how love is.
Love also likes to trick you, it likes to trick you into believing that it's all okay, that everything that is happening, it's okay. It likes those tricks of light and dark, it sometimes drags you in to just play with you. It likes to show you what you don't want. It hopes that you will understand it, but it's so hard to understand a creature like love.
Trust, it's a fact of life that those people close to you, you should trust, you should trust them with everything you have, absolutely everything. There's so few people in the world now that you can truly trust like that. And maybe that's okay, maybe it's okay for you to just have one person that you can trust with your secrets, that you can trust with everything you are and everything you will be just that one person.
Some people, they're so trusting they trust the wrong people. They learn, they start to learn that the only way to survive is to trust no one. I feel for those of you who feel that way. The way that someone has hurt you so much that you can't trust anyone anymore. It's so nice to trust one person with everything you are, it's so hard for us mere humans to go it alone. That's what trust is for. That's what we have that one or few friends we can trust so we don't have to go it alone.
For those of you that trust no one, that feel as if it's too hard, it hurts to much from before. Try to become someone new, find that someone, but don't pick someone, watch them, watch all your friends, pick that one that you can trust with everything. Think, if you told that person your deepest darkest secret, would they have someone else to go to, or are you it? Do they trust you the same way that you trust them? You can't have trust without that. It's like love, a love that goes one way isn't love at all. You need trust to go back and forth, you must trust this person and this person must trust you.
Without these small things, without love that may be wrong, without secrets that may be told to the wrong person, without trust, you cannot learn. A perfect life from start to finish is not possible. But if you learn from yourself, listen to yourself and become what it is that you feel is what you need to be, that's what life is all about.
A life without mistakes? How can one be? Mistakes is how humans learn, it's how we know that your friends will truly stick by your side, it's how we know the people we love will be there, it's how we know that this path we're on, this path we choose is right.
Remember, Love, Trust, Life, it's not easy. It's not easy for anyone. You are not alone.
